I have been tagged by Sherif :)
First time ever :) and it is not easy at all ... write 10 things about me ?!
I stopped a lot in front of this tag... you know me, I have to analyse and think and search and look for reason and and and ... but it is truly puzzling ... if it was questions and answers, it would be a lot easier ... but ... it is one statement asking me to dive deep into my known - yet unknown - self .... and tell.
It is not only diving... it is not only a journey to things I rather hide and never face... it is also the act of telling... of revealing... which I never learn before I started blogging ... and even when I am blogging ... I draw stories and situations to explain a tiny feeling ... it is hard ... hard
But I will give it a try anyway ... it has been so long since my fingers spoke to my keyboard and I can consider that as my first attempt for bringing back relations to its normal track
10 Things About ME:
One: Hide in Dreams
I am a dreamer and you know that... I live between the pages of written words and you have noticed... since my early days... books of stories were my Friends... lines were my shelter... spend hours reading... dreaming... building worlds of my own creation... dream... I hide in dreams ... I do face bitter reality... but for a short while... then i go back home to my ... dreams.
Two: Senseless ... Heartless
Tell me beautiful words of love... of passion... of dreamy romance... and i will feel not!!
I loved once, and was slaughtered in the temple of agony and loneliness... a hole in my soul devoured my being slowly but steadily
To stop it... to survive... to live again .... I had to make a defence mechanism... turn my heart into an icy rock ... and my feelings to bars of iron ... locking me inside ... I built a shell around myself... layer after layer... and the more i add... the stronger I became... but the price was too expensive ... I lost my heart, my feelings... and my humanity... became a walking zombie ... but I wonder... like Pinocchio who wanted to be a real boy !! can i ever be a real woman again ?
Three: Cold ... Rude sometimes
If the person is not in my circle of interest... so I consider him/ her invisible
as much as I am so caring with people i like ... i am totally the opposite with others... to the extent of coldness sometimes... i believe that we shouldn't spell our feelings on everyone ... they are too precious and have to be given to those who deserve
Four: Mercy from god... humans can also be merciful
I think that one of the meanings associated with humans is mercy ... mercy for the weak ... for those who are less than us ... for the old... for the young... for the ignorant... for all god's souls even if it is a flower... or a tree .... mercy is a divine act that god try so hard to teach it to humans ... but do they really know that to be merciful means to be human ??
Five: Arrogant ... ME????
They say that I am a little bit arrogant ... and I have to admit that I sometimes give this impression.... but unintentionally ... unless the person him/her self is arrogant :)
I love to have my own space ... I love to have my own circle ... and because I am alienated so I usually don't talk to others about things I am interested in .. it is not my fault ... it is the others
One more thing gives this impression .... the way I walk... the way I look ... my nose are always facing the sky... my back is always straight... i walk on one line... like a queen ... like a goddess :) but natural ... no fake
Six: Stubborn... like rocky mountains
That is one thing I hate about myself ... cause it sometimes ... well usually cause me problems ... but I have a very good reason behind this ... my stubbornness is fed by my principals .. which are impossible to be changed unless you have a very very very very strong logic that may convince my mind
Seven: Blind Believer
God... the mighty... the merciful... I blindly believe in you
you give and take with unknown wisdom ... but I know deep in my heart that all what you do is for the good.
Eight: Multi-cultured ... Multi Faces
I was born in el sayeda zeinab... lived in haram... went to french school... mingled with people from different social classes ... I can be any ... and I can belong to any social class ... simple or sophisticated... I can be anyone... I can put on the dress of any woman... full of contradiction that I hardly can explain ... but i am learning how to deal with them
Nine: Hardly use artificial colors
I don't wear makeups ... and if I do ... I only put few lines ... I do that in purpose for I don't wanna attract attention to me ... I have simple peaceful innocent face lines ... not baby face ... a woman's face ... like the nymphs and goddesses drawn in Renaissance time ... and from innocence rise sexiness
I don't wear makeup for I have natural colors ... my skin reflects lights and glow like moon light ... my eyes are golden with rays of green... my cheeks are red naturally... my lips are rosy sometimes purple ... so tell me, why would I wear makeup?!!
Ten: See the Unseen ... Break the unbreakable
I am psychic, and possess a high level of transparency... I can see signs from god in everything around me ... and when I look into thee eyes.. I can tell what's inside
some of my dreams are symbolic .... and when I interpret them ... they happens ..
I know things ... people look at me with wide eyes and ask me how you know ... my answer is ... don't ask me... I just know ... my mind... my soul ... I know
I met men like mountains... they can manipulate whoever ... and impose their will on whoever... they tried the same with me ... but never succeeded ... the mountain is broken ... and washed away to unknown seas
Eleven: My Mind ... My Life :)
I appreciate my mind ... and I appreciate my principals ... and insulting them can never be forgiven ... so when dealing with me you have to be extra clear like water... I am smart enough to recognize lies, and hidden agendas :) so no need to play mr /mrs smart... cause I play dump but I understand everything going around
Twelve: Nature is my religion
I love nature ... every single tiny aspect of nature ... I love trees and flowers and clouds.. I love moonlight and twinkling stars ... and green glass... and fresh air... sea and waves and little colorful shells ... I love nature... yes I do
wow i wrote 12 thing not just 10... didn't expect that
My strange Idea for Today
You Still can Never Know Anything about ME!!
Send this tag to the following dear friends (if they didn't do it yet )
Shimaa Gamal
Askandarani
Eyad
Xero
Agenda Hamra
