August 03, 2023

The Fallen Angel




The world mysteries are ancient as time itself, dark and shocking… and sometimes my mind can’t grasp the idea behind some of them.

Yesterday i slept a human, a basic everyday human, do all what humans do, and feel all what humans feel, human indeed or that’s what i thought.

Today i woke up a descendant of fallen angels, but with no wings to fly me away home, no superpower to change enforce my will, no insight into the unknown obscure future.

A descendant with no trace of my ancient ancestors but a mysterious blood type … that’s rare and unusual… and has puzzled scientist about its origins.

Rhesus  Negative … the Alien Blood … laugh at the face of humanity and tell them there is more than just them living in the universe… and what we ignore is much more than what we know

The theory is based on biblical text, speaking of a superior race - The Nephilim race - who fell from heaven, the sons of God who lusted the mortal women of earth… they mated with them, and a new hybrid is created with an unusual blood type.

But what interested me in all of this is how we are described… they say we are different, our perception of things is different, our psychic ability is different, our sensitivity to the external world is different… many claimed they feel alienated in their surrounding, and long for a place they call home and don’t know where it is.

Some say it is the mark of witches, the descendants of demons, the aliens who visited earth a long time ago 

But i say i am just different… and to be different is not easy… the everyday struggle is exhausting… i had to teach myself how to live and cherish my difference, and carry it proudly wherever i go

It is 3am in the morning, and i started to feel my wings spreading… ready to fly me toward the unknown

                      My Strange Idea for Today
             I am a Fallen Angel… or a Witch… it depends ;)




12 comments:

Anonymous said...

Very nice and deep,
I never knew of the Nephilium, but it sounds like bunch of horny lusty creatures:) interesting and wild 😛
Keep up the good work.

Egyptiana Trapped Soul said...

Dear Anonymous
It was very interesting to know about this fact… but what was so strange to me is why they associate it with RH-
Why everything we don’t know has to be associated with extra terrestrial or fantastic creatures ? It is how the human mind works… to explain mysteries with mysteries

I can’t help but noticing that the doom of Adam was by the hand of eve in heaven.. and the Doom of the Nephilium was by the hand of women on earth … and the examples are endless in history and mythology
Women … the hidden force … mmm that sounds like a good idea for a post

Anonymous said...

Hello Egyptiana

Once again you dig deep inside human nature to shape a breathtaking narration where you mix fancies with inner projection building up on myths and legends of ancient mythologies, salute!

It appears to me that you have a sincere affection and true understanding to ancient civilization and religions which is a rare thing in such times…

You are tackling two matters; first one never dies “Human race true nature” in spite of the gender however since you are a Woman you are giving your feminine prospective which is quite insightful & interesting...

I totally agree with you that most of the times people fall in the labelling and branding trap by using sophisticated terms merely to polish their opinion or point of view with a sense of validity!

As far as Women power is concerned it is undeniable yet I don’t endorse that seduction and temptation is driven –only- by Women, a bit stereotype in my own humble opinion temptation and seduction starts in the mind regardless of the gender! Sure Women have their charm and beauty yet Men too have their own ways as per the old proverb “It takes two to Tango!”

Now then to the second matter “Alienation” such a powerful word few understands its true meaning regrettably most people use it interchangeably with “Lonesome” but boy they are gravely mistaken. It really touched me to the utmost since “Alienation” has been my status quo for decades it became my dream project main theme...

Regardless of your gender, social background no words can describe the feeling of being surrounded by people let it be a fancy resort overlooking the Andaman Sea, Restaurant at San-Francisco Golden Gate, café in down town Cairo or even a desk at administrative building! With an ache to cry out loud yet you bury your screams inside your heart and make sure to hold your tears so no one can have a glimpse of your vulnerability...

You are a Corker, Egyptiana. What a Corker you are!

Egyptiana Trapped Soul said...

Hello Anonymous
A Corker you called me … what an interesting word
I looked it up and it puzzled me … for there is so many interpretations and i wonder which one you mean
Am i a peculiar odd unique person, or am i the one who settle discussions of mind by answering the unanswered questions, or am i the one who remove the cork that imprison the deep hidden feelings and let them flow
Which one am i ? I wonder

Back to your comment

I love to read about different ancient civilizations, especially their beliefs and religions and myths with which they explained the unexplained…. For me … this is where we can find the answers …. They didn’t live for thousands of years and perish without reaching certain truth about life and existence… it is stupid to think so … that’s why i am always inclined to grab bits and pieces of here and there… and reflect upon them

Alienation
It is the only right word to describe the deep feelings of not belonging…. not lonely….alienated …. I don’t belong, I don’t feel familiar with my surrounding even if it is home, or comfortable around others even if they were my loved ones… i am not understood and I don’t understand how others’ minds work … i am an alien … i belong somewhere else … and where i am .. is not home

I wish you can enlighten me about your feeling of being alienated from your surrounding … i will understand … cause i am in the same void dear friend … and misery loves company :D

Human nature… seduction and temptation … we were created to seduce… and be seduced… otherwise life will not be… and we will not be motivated to do anything …
It is not always physical … mental seduction is even more powerful … if you know what i mean

And finally …. Don’t scream my friend … your silent screams are heard …
I write to visualize my world…
I write to breath and to be my real self
Write to me … and be yourself …

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your comment Egyptiana, glad you looked up “Corker” seems that you missed couple of obvious meanings remarkable & astonishing :)

Well when it comes to writing its extremely personal there are no rules my friend unless you are writing a novel, screenplay or a play even in such mediums you can break the rules but for a very good reason!

In my own humble opinion writing is ongoing process to express our thoughts, inner feelings, fantasies even fears but the most important thing is to explore and discover our true voice and from the way you write you have a unique and distinctive one don’t let go.

Totally get you as far as alienation is concerned I lived through it for quite some time because it was a theme for my project then I’ve been lucky enough to bring it to light and voila its out…

Definitely agree that mental seduction more powerful than physical one which is a mere episodic and its euphoria fades away once desire is fulfilled.


Be well.

Egyptiana Trapped Soul said...

What do you mean by a theme for a project? How can you live alienation as part of an experiment …
Mmm … and bring it to light to who … does this have to do with your profession?
And who would be interested in living a deep feeling such as alienation and bring it out to others to see and feel??? … unless you are some kind of artist !!

Riddles riddles

I have a voice but I don’t know how to use it… i scream from time to time thru these posts… but i lack the discipline of a writer
My ideas are scattered and can make nothing solid … it upsets me … for i want to tell tales

And thank you for the lovely compliment .. *blush …

Anonymous said...

Life is full of riddles & mysteries that what makes it worth living…

You already have a unique voice, writing is a practice you need to write one letter a time just don’t lose your spontaneity and intuition I'm quite sure other followers concur that you are doing a great job!

As for telling tales you already telling them through your distinguished blog if you want to stretch it more you can always do so, trust your instincts.

Don’t mention it stay safe.

Anonymous said...

The blog is getting more and more interesting to me, I really like the exchange of thoughts and I really enjoy and you can say I like the other Anonymous:)
Keep up the poetic and profound discussion

Anonymous said...

Dear Anonymous,

I guess we all owe to Egyptiana's blog since she is the reason for initiating such exquisite and distinctive topics that will inspire us all...

Like a witch she threw her spells to drew us to her universe, enchanting us with her words and tempting phrases with seductive subtext that you fail to resist and force you to indulge with extreme cautious of course as you know mate witches can curse you for life and words can be Lethal ;)

Admiration and respect is mutual :) have a good one!

Egyptiana Trapped Soul said...


Dear Anonymous who thinks i am a witch and with whom i was talking about riddles
Writing is a practice indeed, and i have for so long shied away from even trying… abandoned my dream and my true self
I am trying and i will keep trying… and maybe one day curious eyes will read my tales published in a beautiful book

I am a bit rusty though, but i am not in a hurry

Trust your instinct… i do always… and my instinct brought me back to the only space where i am my true self

I am so happy you like my blog, and the random topics that float to the surface of my mind

A witch you think of me :) but i am dear… in a very long time ago, that i recall not… i have been a witch… but elaboration need a special post :)

Egyptiana Trapped Soul said...

Dear Anonymous who think that this blog is getting more and more interesting,
More is coming :)

Anonymous said...

EG, I’m delighted to know that more will be coming our way,
Dear Anonymous, it is an honor and privilege to be called mate:) by you,
never been called that which leads me to believe that you are or were a resident of the land down under:)
Your intellect and way of writing is beyond me, like or is music coming from The land of Mozart, it’s a joy to have this beautiful exchange mate:)
Cheers.