March 30, 2008
March 24, 2008
Unlike my usual shower attitude, I laid down in the bathtub… let hot delicious water pour over me… enjoy the sweet feeling of relaxation it generates – to both my Body and Soul.
Only then, my flashes start to get clearer… and my shower thoughts pour all over me just like the hot water.
The water is almost under my chin… I lay further… let the water cover my hair and ears… only my nose and eyes are above the surface… starring at the ceiling… and the drops of water hanged there, wishing for a proper burial in my hand made sea.
Listen to my heavy breathing
Listen to the sound of life coming out of me
I wonder! Here and now, in this typical place for committing suicide
What can ever stop me from cutting my veins? I have access to razors, seems very tempting… huh
Or even lay down and breath water… allow the element of life and death to pour inside me … wash me … fill me
Maybe a little electric device … et voila… I am dead
Why death seems a very tempting idea now!
Why can't I end my life as simple as that
Ending life is so easy
Starting life is almost impossible
The idea is devouring me… leaving no space at all… my breathing gets heavier.. I fought to stand and looked around with amazement… strange thoughts are coming to me nowadays
I started to wash my weary body; it feels good when I am clean, smells like sweet heavenly strawberries… I stared to the mirror in front of me… wondering .. It is so easy to clean the dirt outside … but what can ever clean the dirt inside!!!
My strange Idea for Today
My Bathroom is Hunted … with my others' Thoughts!!!!!!!!!
March 21, 2008
The 21st of March… The first day of the beautiful reviving spring… my sister’s birthday… and of course… Mother’s day.
It is a day full of life… a symbol of birth, and fertility
A day when Mother earth give birth to a new face, for the aged world, worn out by winter
A day when flower blossoms start to crawl over tree branches, coloring our busy days…
A day when I smile and secretly wish for a happier time … smelling the scent of life emerging from everything around.
Maybe that is why this day is chosen to celebrate the mother’s day!
Mother’s day… I rather call it … The Day of the Feminine power
Power to give life
To change hard conditions into favorable ones
To contain the whole world with all its complications in between our tiny hands
To guide the human souls with ideas, and secretly hidden intelligence
To fight for the best of our beloved
To sacrifice ceaselessly with all what we own... even ourselves
Mother’s day, is every woman’s day… for being a mother is a built in feature, god planted its seed… and let it grow into a great sacred tree
A tree that feed, shade, spill wisdom, and give pleasure
I dedicate today’s greetings to:
Every mother on earth or up in heaven – May god bless their tender souls
who takes care of her parents
who take cares of her brothers and sisters
who shares to put a smile on the face of poor and orphans
who contains and love her man (bf, husband ..)
who feeds an animal and show mercy to all god’s creatures
who cherish friendship and is always around to spread cheers, and contain tears and fears
Every Girl/Woman who knows the true meaning of being a woman… of being the bearer of the feminine power… and realizes the gift that changed the face of the world.
All men who curse women… who are too arrogant, and afraid to admit our sacred power … remember that Adam asked God for Eve - *wink
So happy Mother’s day my fellow females … May god bless our feminine powers inside.
My strange Idea for today
We are all mothers
March 02, 2008
Sadness is a Disease ... With no CURE