October 18, 2023

Numb







Happiness 
Sadness
We seek one… we run from one
But too much of any blind the mind 

Light
Darkness
We cherish one… we fear one 
But too much of any blind the senses

My life has been a roller coaster
A lot is happening… I don't know what I want… I don't know if I am right or wrong… no path to follow… unbalanced

I can’t forgive
I can’t forget
I need peace… I need a resolution 

Then suddenly… in the middle of this turmoil… and out of the depth of my Aquarius soul… the feeling of nothing is spreading 

Continuous exposure to pain leads to one of Aquarius most glorious traits

Aquarius Numbness 
the feeling of empty… emotionally dead… mentally blocked

I am but a moving body with a soul too tired to live 

I must find something to fill the void in my head and let me loose the negative thoughts that prey on me

Something that will bring the spark of life into me again

Numbness is good… a thin shield that help me to keep going… but not for long

Too much numbness… burn the little feelings left in me

What am I good at… what path should i follow… what will help me out of this scary ocean in which I keep sinking slowly

What? I need to know 

My strange idea for today
I am a sinking log