June 19, 2008

Today's Thought

I feel like writing and writing ... about many things and different things that covers all my life aspects... I wanna rewrite my CV, a good cover lettre, my book chapters, deeper thoughts ... I even think of sending topics to specialized magazines

My finger tips aches for the lettres, for the keyboard ... and my mind is ready to spill all its thughts :)

I also feel like learning something new... and guess what i choosed ?!


some people would say this is nonsence, and some others will be reluctant and say maybe why not... but i read once that tarots were used to carry hidden messages during the times of christian church opression... and i believe that tarot cards carry stories and glimpses of ancient spirits that lived once and knew a lot about this universe and how it works, and the secrets of life !!!

so i decided today to start my quest in knowing the secrets of life

I also decided to start a serie of different writing ... reincarnation

I have spoke to a some freinds about that... and the discussion led me to the possibility of this theory, and that it was not totally denied by religions ... i believe that those inside me are the spirits that stayed from ancient time ... so i will write about reincarnation of me in different lives ... how i was... what i learned... as an attempt to understand me !!! and how i became the one i am !!!

stay around ... for a mysterious time =)

My strange idea for today

I want to Know... I want to Believe

June 16, 2008

The Call... For You

It started out as a feeling

Which then grew into a hope

Which then turned into a quiet thought

Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder'

Til it was a battle cry

I'll come backWhen you call me

No need to say goodbye


Just because everything's changing

Doesn't mean it's never been this way before

All you can do is try to know who your friends are

As you head off to the warPick a star on the dark horizon

And follow the light

You'll come back when it's over

No need to say goodbye

You'll come back when it's over

No need to say goodbye


Now we're back to the beginning

It's just a feeling and no one knows yet

But just because they can't feel it too

Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger'

Til they're before your eyes

You'll come backWhen they call you

No need to say goodbyeYou'll come back

When they call you

No need to say goodbye


My Strange Idea for Today

I have nothing to say... You know it all

Remember me... our world... and how we use to be

June 10, 2008

The Boy Who Chose to Grow

Peter pan… the boy who lived in Neverland… the magical land
Where everything is beautiful, and… possible
Where all the feelings are fresh and young and … pure
Where the sun's golden rays embrace the flowers and the surface of the blue sea… and the sparrows sing with joy and content over the branches of the trees

But nothing remains the same… change is the soul of life… even if it was for the worst

Peter Pan, the ever young boy… the dreamy… the tender… lived in peace… until his shadow slipped in the real world… was struck by its charm… its fake colorful face… and went back to Neverland to tell peter pan about it all :

*it is a different world… where everything is real
-but it is also real in here… it is our land
*no it is not… even its name … NEVER land… the land that never and will never truly exist
-but we are happy and free
*we will be happy and free too… we will do everything we want… and others will highly perceive us… we will be men… not just boys.
-but… we are magical boys
*still boys … you have to grow up… be a man…I am going there … if you want to join… you know where to find me

The shadow left… and Peter pan was torn apart … between his desire to remain ever young… to live in his own world… to enjoy peace and magic… and between his shadow's desire to grow… and become a man

The shadow was pulled inside the whirlpool of life… taken deep and deeper… responsibilities and duties… peter pan couldn’t suffer any longer… he wants to be whole again… so … he surrendered and … chose to grow

He chose to leave Neverland… and live in the real world
He chose to be a man … and loose connection with the child inside

Still a part of him cries for Neverland... but … he managed to silence it

And that was the story of the boy who chose to grow


I know it is not easy to live in two worlds… I know what it means to live something and feel something else… and I have to admit that I complained about it many times.

I tried once to grow … to be a woman and follow my shadow… to detach myself from the magical Neverland of my own creation… but I couldn’t manage to stay in the real world for long

Why being a man/ woman means to loose connection with our Neverland?
Why chose to wholly grow?
Why detach ourselves from the only place where we can breathe… and fly free?
Why life has to be tough and dry… while we have our own space of beautiful magic… why loose the dream… anything in life started with a dream

My fellow dreamers… don’t grow up… don’t loose the connection with the child inside… with the world we truly belong to… with magic, and beauty

:( Peter Pan… I wish you come back

My strange Idea for Today

I will not Grow Up

June 09, 2008

Run to You :(

I know that when you look at me

Theres so much that you just dont see

But if you would only take the time

I know in my heart youd find

A girl whos scared sometimes

Who isnt always strong

Cant you see the hurt in me? I feel so all alone

I wanna run to you (oooh)

I wanna run to you (oooh)

Wont you hold me in your arms

And keep me safe from harm

I wanna run to you (oooh)

But if I come to you (oooh)

Tell me, will you stay or will you run away


Each day, each day I play the role

Of someone always in control

But at night I come home and turn the key

Theres nobody there, no one cares for me

Whats the sense of trying hard to find your dreams

Without someone to share it with

Tell me what does it mean?


I need you here

I need you here to wipe away my tears

To kiss away my fears

If you only knew how much...

My strnage Idea for Today