July 22, 2009

Behind the Stone Face

I know a girl who knew many men in her life .. as a result of her exposure and life style

some were freinds

some were loving her madly .. but unfortunately ... from one side

and few she felt they worth trying with ... but end up with a complete rejection from her side

all that is practicaly normal .. during the course of our life .. we kow people that we categorize under the previous categories

but this is not why i am writing this ..

the pattern i have spotted through her stories has attracted my attention... :

"She mainly attracts men with brain ... with power ... with strong existence in life ... those who are loved and feared and greatly respected"

and behind their stone face .. she could find the most tender loving heart .. and transform the rocky feelings into a stream of water to the extent of writing her poetry .. and make them melt in an endless status of adoration and lust that can never be satisfied but with her

Man .. this simple yet complicated creature

what can ever touch the heart of a man with the previously mentioned qualities??
that is the question that i asked her several times, and i got nothing but a puzzeled smile from her side!!!

as i thought a lot about this matter .. and through reading the pattern of her stories and knowing her personality .. i could reach a one line rule

be simple .. be passionate .. be natural .. and above all be true .. and the most complicated Man will b yours

a complicated man .. is searching for shelter from the weight of his restless mind and wandering soul ... a shelter fromt he daily fights .. from the fakness that he can easily read through the others eyes

he is seeking his mother in you

a mother who is simple and take anything easily and lightly and make the most complicated issue going

a mother whose love is endless .. and whose passion about the silliest thing her son do is enormous .. making him feel as if he is the best man on earth

a mother who is so natural without any fake feelings .. and with a look like flowers showered with morning dew ... reading his most hidden thoughts .. and reach deep his fears .. washing them away

a mother who is true in everything she does .. and beleives in everything he does

mystery of life ... revealed

My Strange Idea for Today

I am a Mother

July 15, 2009

Reality Vs My Stubborn Mind

I woke up this morning with a feeling that i have neutralized a long time ago ..

neutralized out of my increasing sense of reality .. i didn't chose to grow up .. as a Friend of mine told me the past week .. i am just overwhelmed with loads of critical events that take place in my life.

back to the feeling

i have always been complaining that i don't have a definite feeling of reality .. nor a definite feeling of a world of my own creation... i am in between

for a while i sunk my mind in that sweet soft world of mine .. my master piece of all time ... a world of my own creation .. where i live, breath, feel, love... and it did me really well .. i became the woman i wish .. and all my feelings poured out of my mind in the form of stories that enchanted others

and then reality struck me with cold winds of duty .. so i have to pack and leave my world ... but with a promise to be back once in a while .. and it happened .. every now and then .. i go visit my other life .. live for a while .. then go back to reality .. until

reality consumed my time and mind .. and i lost all contact with my world

i was confused .. but i adapted fast .. for i didn't had the luxury to lay down and think ... i have only one path ... act and never react .. others fate was hanged in my neck .. so i have to move .. and put back my armor, sword and shield .. call for all my forces .. and fight for the good of others and myself

weary of fights ..

longing for my true self ... an enchantress from other time

but blinded with duty .. deafened with calls of help

so i had to keep fighting mercilessly, fiercely, and fearlessly

until yesterday....

i felt it coming, but didn't believe it ... after all this time .. the gates of my world are open again .. glowing under the morning soft rays of lights ..

i slept and woke up

not knowing where i am

not knowing who i am

try to figure out

do things out of habit .. not out of realization

i feel my world again

i listen to the angelic music .. even the devilish cries of shadows beneath earth

i smell the flowers of the spring .. and even the blood of the fights between good and evil

i hear the melodies of harps played by nymphs of forests ... and even the clings of verocious swords searching for blood

i touch the soft warm clouds with my pinkish toes .. and even the hard rocks beneath the stream of the river

i am back


not fully

still on the edge of two worlds

back again to point zero

my stubborn dreamy mind is pushing me away from reality

and reality is pulling me under calls of duty

to which i will bend ... to which i will belong ... in this critical time ?

My Strange Idea for Today

Defensive Mechanism .. The Runaway ME

July 08, 2009

Quotes about MEN

Power does not corrupt men; fools, however, if they get into a position of power, corrupt power. ~ George Bernard Shaw

Passion makes idiots of the cleverest men, and makes the biggest idiots clever. ~ Francois de La Rochefoucauld

All men’s miseries derive from not being able to sit in a quiet room alone. ~ Blaise Pascal

God made woman beautiful and foolish; beautiful, that man might love her; and foolish, that she might love him. ~ Unknown

Young men want to be faithful, and are not; old men want to be faithless, and cannot. ~ Oscar Wilde

A man may conquer a million men in battle but one who conquers himself is, indeed, the greatest of conquerors. ~ Buddha

Women need a reason to have sex. Men just need a place. ~ Billy Crystal

Men play the game; women know the score. ~ Roger Woddis

When a man points a finger at someone else, he should remember that four of his fingers are pointing at himself. ~ Louis Nizer

Few men have been admired of their familiars. ~ Michel de Montaigne

Boys will be boys, and so will a lot of middle-aged men. ~ Kin Hubbard

If it’s true that men are such beasts, this must account for the fact that most women are animal lovers. ~ Doris Day

All men [are] of one metal, but not in one mold. ~ John Lyly

The greatest truths are the simplest, and so are the greatest men. ~ Julius Charles Hare

If you want anything said, ask a man. If you want something done, ask a woman. ~ Margaret Thatcher

A diplomat is a man who always remembers a woman’s birthday but never remembers her age. ~ Robert Frost

The desire of excessive power caused the angels to fall; the desire of knowledge caused men to fall. ~ Francis Bacon

Priests are not men of the world; it is not intended that they should be; and a University training is the one best adapted to prevent their becoming so. ~ Samuel Butler

Men are only as great as they are kind. ~ Elbert Hubbard

Men kick friendship around like a football, but it doesn’t seem to crack. Women treat it like glass and it goes to pieces. ~ Anne Morrow Lindbergh

Only the wisest and stupidest of men never change. ~ Confucius

In the long run, men hit only what they aim at. Therefore, they had better aim at something high. ~ Henry David Thoreau

It is a fact often observed, that men have written good verses under the inspiration of passion, who cannot write well under other circumstances. ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

My Strange Idea for today
and they call women complicated lol :D:D

July 01, 2009

From within

today, while i was gong home, the taxi driver suddenly started to shout pointing to a car ... saying "chinese... chinese"

and then he started to complain about the flow of chinese and korean cars .. and his wishes to have an egyptian car to be proud of

he talked about the youth who wish to work ,,, and can do cars even better than this one,,, but they are just waiting for the chance

all of this is normal .. and many people agree with this man

but i don't ...

the problem in our country is that we are always waiting for someone to draw us the way and then we follow it ... ignoring our inner force .. and hiding our courage

i wonder why not a bunch of Friends start on a small project ... even if it means to work with their own hands ??? some do .. but the majority is still waiting for someone to push them forward

this is how we were raised .. and this is how we will never be but a developing country

my strange idea for today
fly with me