October 18, 2023

Numb







Happiness 
Sadness
We seek one… we run from one
But too much of any blind the mind 

Light
Darkness
We cherish one… we fear one 
But too much of any blind the senses

My life has been a roller coaster
A lot is happening… I don't know what I want… I don't know if I am right or wrong… no path to follow… unbalanced

I can’t forgive
I can’t forget
I need peace… I need a resolution 

Then suddenly… in the middle of this turmoil… and out of the depth of my Aquarius soul… the feeling of nothing is spreading 

Continuous exposure to pain leads to one of Aquarius most glorious traits

Aquarius Numbness 
the feeling of empty… emotionally dead… mentally blocked

I am but a moving body with a soul too tired to live 

I must find something to fill the void in my head and let me loose the negative thoughts that prey on me

Something that will bring the spark of life into me again

Numbness is good… a thin shield that help me to keep going… but not for long

Too much numbness… burn the little feelings left in me

What am I good at… what path should i follow… what will help me out of this scary ocean in which I keep sinking slowly

What? I need to know 

My strange idea for today
I am a sinking log


3 comments:

Anonymous said...

When the suffering and hardship feels endless and you feel you are getting tired of it all and exhausted, do not lose hope for there is ease and some relief just around the corner.
as the beatles song goes:

For tomorrow may rain
So I'll follow the sun🌞

Cheer up EG

Anonymous said...

I neglected to say, your choices of pictures and images are Immaculate.

Anonymous said...


Hello Egyptiana.

Hope you find some solace and ease in the wise and poetic words "Song of Love" by my beloved author Goubran!

I am the lover's eyes, and the spirit's
Wine, and the heart's nourishment.
I am a rose. My heart opens at dawn and
The virgin kisses me and places me
Upon her breast.


I am the house of true fortune, and the
Origin of pleasure, and the beginning
Of peace and tranquility. I am the gentle
Smile upon his lips of beauty. When youth
Overtakes me he forgets his toil, and his
Whole life becomes reality of sweet dreams.


I am the poet's elation,
And the artist's revelation,
And the musician's inspiration.


I am a sacred shrine in the heart of a
Child, adored by a merciful mother.


I appear to a heart's cry; I shun a demand;
My fullness pursues the heart's desire;
It shuns the empty claim of the voice.


I appeared to Adam through Eve
And exile was his lot;
Yet I revealed myself to Solomon, and
He drew wisdom from my presence.


I smiled at Helena and she destroyed Tarwada;
Yet I crowned Cleopatra and peace dominated
The Valley of the Nile.


I am like the ages -- building today
And destroying tomorrow;
I am like a god, who creates and ruins;
I am sweeter than a violet's sigh;
I am more violent than a raging tempest.


Gifts alone do not entice me;
Parting does not discourage me;
Poverty does not chase me;
Jealousy does not prove my awareness;
Madness does not evidence my presence.


Oh seekers, I am Truth, beseeching Truth;
And your Truth in seeking and receiving
And protecting me shall determine my
Behavior.