August 20, 2008

Believe it or Not... I am in Drugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!


That is a shocking fact...

Those who don't know me will never think that I may be in drugs
and those who know me personally, will be definitely shocked ... they saw me, they dealt with me ... we laughed, we ate, we discussed different matters ... and they never noticed that i am an addict... and drugged

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I am addicted
I am out of control
And my drugs are the only thing that keeps me alive

I am addicted
I am loosing connection
And my drugs are the only thing that keeps what remains of me

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i feel as if my mind is surrounded by thick mist... I see no light... I see no darkness... and i hear no sound

i am flowing softly ... carried by wind... kissed by petals... hugged by rivers... and the mist ... oh the beautiful mist... is everywhere... I see nothing... I just feel what the mist wants me to feel...

My drugs are the gate to heaven... or to hell ... it doesn't matter... the mist knows ... the mist know

I tried to hold to the Conscious rock... to those around me... to life... to friends... to family... even to him ... they faintly call my name ... but the mist keep all voices off... the mist contains my fear... and realizes my dreams ... the mist knows... the mist knows...

What do you all want from me!! Leave me with my drugs ... leave me with my mists... go away all of you... I cant stand up... my body is loose ... I want to sleeeeep... the mist knows... yes it knows

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My Strange Idea for Today

I am Addicted to Thinking

I am Drugged with Dreams

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I love this shocking entrance ..
So dynamic and breath taking ..

Haven't I told you that you were born to be a marvellous writer ?

Keep pushing along with your amazing shocks ..!!

Anonymous said...

"The conventional view serves to protect us from the painful job of thinking."
John Kenneth Galbraith

"There are two ways to slide easily through life; to believe everything or to doubt everything. Both ways save us from thinking."
Alfred Korzybski

and you just won't let life go that easily will you? :D

طارق هلال said...

Dear Egyptiana

you are right, and I am addicted with my feelings
and drugged with my eyes,
although I depend on my mind in work, I keep doubting if my eyes are really open or I am still dreaming
you know, sometimes I wish someone to come to me and say "I know what do you think, you are right this is the life..." , and other times I wish to hear a loud horn in my ears, one like the ships semaphore, and got awake from that damn feel of living with wings and no legs, you have to fly and can't land because you will be smashed under the people legs.

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I am touched a lot by your post, as always ..
you are the marvelous word goddess egyptiana
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my very best regards to you

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sorry I am late in the tag.. but i don't have an Ipod,
wait till I get one..., :D

Anonymous said...

my dearest miss egyptiana

kol sana went taiba we ramadan karim ya gameel

an exciting new idea u r talking about in your post dear,a catching title
:)

go on with your wonderful shocks as sherif said
:)

سمـــــــــا said...

على فكرة انتى خضتينى بجد وفضلت طول ما انا بقرا الكلام مكشرة ومصدومة ومخضوضة

قلت يعنى اغيب كل الفترة دى وارجع الاقى كارثة :))

وحشنى البلوج بتاعك اوى ووحشنى كلامك وافكارك جدااااااااا


كل سنة وانتى طيبة يا جميلة ورمضان كريم واتمنالك كل الفرح والسعادة